this morning i laid out a huge amount of mail that i had not been able to either toss or put away and organize…. in the pile, i came upon a post card address to myself. it is my annual invitation to the relay for life survivor reception which is to take place in May. will need to rsvp before april 1st. 
this week i was informed that a wonderful man who means the world to me….. has been diagnosed with skin cancer. although, further visits to the doctor and oncologists are on the works to determine the cancer and future treatments itself…. his dr remains optimistic that it was caught early enough. i want him to know, that even though he may feel as if he is riding on a roller coaster at this time…….. i am here for him……and love him deeply…… …….. i will participate in the relay this year….. not only to walk for others that i know and myself, .. but most importantly this year……. i for Him.
~rg
Here we go…. Last Wednessday, I was hit by a brick. The diagnosis of a mole behind my ear is cancerous. Melanoma. Out of the three types of skin cancer, this one is the worst. The hardest part is the wait I currently am wading through. I worry about the worst case scenario of having the cancer spread through my body. You can’t help BUT think of the worst case in these things I guess. The best case would be that the tumor is localized and can just be removed with outpatient surgery. However the funny thing is I spent most of the weekend looking on the web about melanoma and cases involving it. Funny how those “best-case” scenarios rarely show up. Always about the countless surgeries, chemo and radiation sessions, never about “was in and aout in a few hours and am done”. I’m trying to keep occupied with things that involve strong concentration, but the C word still makes its way into my thoughts constantly. All I really know at this point is I wish the surgeon and oncologist I am waiting on would hurry the heck up and call so I can get moving on this. As Tom Petty sings, “The waiting is the hardest part.” – RR
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